I think I forgot
What I forgot, I'm not exactly sure

Maybe it's your parking space
What type of tea is your favorite
Perhaps it's the kind of car you drive
Or what size shoe you wear

But there are a few things I will never forget

Like how your eyes light up when you smile
The bells that sound when you laugh
Secret conversations in hushed tones

Distance makes my heart fonder
But what did it do for you?
You, who know of my existence
But not of the workings in my heart

My heart may be fonder, yes
But it also hurts
It hurts because I have forgotten

I'm beginning to forget the lines of your face
I no longer know your ambitions or dreams
It's all fading away and I'm not okay with it
I'm not okay with forgetting what brought me so much joy
The person that opened my heart to so many things
without even realizing it

How could you ever know what you've done for me?
How am I ever suppose to thank you?
And even if I got the chance
I don't think I could speak a word
How could I?
I'm afraid of shattering the image I have of you in my head
I need it
I need it like a daisy needs the sun and I'm so very greedy

But I think I've forgotten

The shape of your lips eludes me
And I hate it

I hate myself for forgetting

sugar in tea
rain in dirt
snow on salt
ice over flame

i melt into nothingness
a barely-felt breeze kissing your lips
as i sit and try not to blow away
to absorb into my surroundings

icy fingers conjure heat
running legs create energy
tangled sheets inspire love

it's the constant motion of earth around
my sun
and i can't keep up
i can't understand why it works this way
how can you not see that you revolve around me
always in my view

maybe that's why it doesn't work
i am stuck here
watching you move effortlessly through your path
and i am stuck here
seeing everyone look at your light

a thousand fireflies dance in my heart
each light a flicker of my fancy
trying to imitate your sun
but my heart is stone

and no one can see it.

It was the forbidden fruit
sticky sweet and dripping
down your greedy fingers
as you watched her
from the corner of your eye

Skin like glass
eyes like fire
a laugh that rings
a smile that touches the sky

She was magnanimous
unassuming
an unwitting host to your innermost desires

You stole the fruit
and you knew the consequence
but in the end
what did it matter?

An eternity of suffering for your disobedience
or a lifetime of regret from pushing it away?

They said the fruit was poison
that it would steal your breath
and take your soul

But how was that any different from
what she did to you?
How was it any different than
meeting her eye?

How could you know
that your smile makes me sad?
I wonder why it is
that something so simple
so insignificant
can hurt me?

But I also wonder
why you wore that shirt today
what color are your socks
and do you like sugar in your tea

These are the questions that rack my brain
every night
every day
until the end of time I'll ask myself
how do you do it?
How do you bear the agony of your heart?

Please.

Please.

Tell me.

I hang on your every word
it's like sunshine dripping from your lips
and I'm so thirsty
i'm dying from a thirst I never knew existed
you fill me up
all warm feeling
sun belly

Please.

Let's just stay this way