To love is to hate
To cry is to love
To feel is to see

Life is a choice for stability or chaos.
No bliss without chaos and no clarity in its absence.
To have peace or bliss; to trust extremity or focus on placidly.

Moments come, floating like smoke in reality. Passing before our eyes, intangible from the taint human touch.

You can shape people, mold their actions but that will only bring sickness to your life.
Love lies in people, the ones who burn bright.
Love life in their moments.
But forever remember they are just smoke, only floating by, an enjoyable facade in the passing of time; but which cannot be captured in your hands, and will flee from your touch.

Focus on your own light.
Your flame glows when others flicker.

Don’t let others get to close your fire neither be drawn too close to theirs. For your flame is unrelenting, it does not ebb or flicker and its constant light will burn those who stand close for too long.

Sometimes I feel like the darkness is never ending.
The clouds only thicken and every moment of happiness is only the diminishing sunlight peaking through the closing cracks of this maelstrom.

Nearly all things remind me of my sins, my wrongs, the people I have hurt.
But I still tell myself every day:
I am ok
I am good
I am happy with who I am

My journey
My destination
And the joy I bring into people's lives

Daydream, stare into space.
Maybe you will see a glimpse of the void, the emptiness, the infinity.

Maybe you will feel the rapture of truth rushing up from your feet to your head.

Feel all, feel full and complete, to the point it all just evaporates like dew under the desert sun.
And you are just left there with a dry mouth, a false memory of its flavor.

Maybe...maybe... you will just see nothing.

Today I will make something greater than before
Today I will be better than the person I was yesterday

Today I will try see past my deficiencies and focus on my work
Today I will learn from my past mistakes and try to better myself
Today I will accept the failure of my own self expectations
Today I will ignore the criticisms placed unfairly upon me

Today I will begin to focus on my work
Today will be like every other day
Today I will realise the future

I know I am big,
so why do I feel so small.

I feel like I never smile,
but I never see a frown in my pictures.

I feel like I never do anything yet my peers are still living at home.

It’s all ******* perspective
Just be the best you can be and be ******* happy with it.

What should you expect from your days?
Everyday, in and out.

Joy, complacency, happiness.
A man once said to me happiness was a childish concept and satisfaction was the only real goal.

Maybe he was right.

Maybe he was an old fool.

So I sit on my bed and think how I fit into the world; then I realise I don't, or just remember the fact again.

I want others to be pieces that fit into me, or me to them, but I realise and remember that not how things work

I sit with my screen typing away I feel like it becomes a part of myself, a tool for inflection, all day everyday. Yep I am starting to go mad.

I hate this spinning all on my own but I know that is the one rule I can't bend to what I want. Something I think fate wants me to learn that I have to enjoy.

I don’t want to, I don't like the hard aspects of life, I just want to be a kid, and let people handle my energy raw.

I have to try stop talking to myself or maybe not, it's still fun. Though I know someone is going to eventually catch me doing it. What will they think, if I already believe I am mad?