Covid
Covid
So morbid.
God forbid
eyes go dead.
Months laid in bed
like coffin bed.
Virus does not bleed.
It's words makes you fade.

No longer part of the lost boys.
Soon you will hear my voice.

Been long since we've settled our differences
and love has blanket us from darkness
Been peaceful ever since...
up to the core of my senses

right now i am fixing myself
doing very little baby steps
to become a better man
not for her but to myself

I am leaving.
Find my own adventure
and possibly never look back.
I don't care if they go looking for me
Or if they ever would...

Watch me.
It's your big lost.

I want to run away
I want to be someone else
I want to hide from love
I am scared of love

I was ok and doing fine.
I was on the top.
I was beautiful.
Now It's all worse and heavy.

I thought love is good.
It was ecstatic.
I thought I could do more with Love.
But I was badly hit and burnt.

Craving so much
So thirsty to taste it again
with this shaking in me
I will not last

Now I feel lost in a labyrinth
The feeling of being dragged back
to the feeling of losing someone
no escape; chained and marked

It's unbearable
like seeing Death
that ***** happiness
the anguish

please save me

sending a message to her
is like poking a snail
only after waiting in hours
it finally comes out of her shell
saying hi to dry a bit of her pores
then goes back to her sleeping spell

and here i am still on shore
staring at probably an empty shell

I put up my pride
Gave a cold shoulder; caging myself
I did my best to stay away
but it seems I could not stride

Foolishly waiting for a call
Checking from time to time
if you remember me at all