I kiss you as if to confirm you are here. With me. Not going anywhere.


To confirm your presence.


I kiss you as I kiss your hands, as I rub your hands, massaging them to make sure they are real. In disbelief, perhaps that it is your hand in mine and that I have the pleasure of holding it.


I run my fingers down your back, soft, your arms, sturdy. I clutch a wiry coil of hair, yours, in my fist.


I smooth your face. I kiss your face.


It is soft. It is safe. It is kind. It is right.

It's my life
So I'll live it how I want
I'll make the rules
And you most definitely will not.

I'll read the stories the stars tell with you
And come up with a different ending
I'll walk on the same road with you
But my steps will be mind bending

So I may not see the same ending
And I may walk with different steps
But that doesn't mean
You should dismiss all I know
And make me see the letters your way
That doesn't mean
You should bring me to my knees
And force me to walk the same

you were not my first kiss,
but you were my firsts;
head kisses
warm hugs
out all-nighters
candid pictures
i-got-locked-out-let-me-spend-the-night-at-your-places
c­omfort
breakdowns
flowers to give
irrational thoughts
uncontrollable crying
sunset-watching beach trip
stargazing but there was only one star trip
share a drink with two straws
hands in your jackets
midnight strolls
person to wake up to
food frenzy dates
out of town trip
concert dates
love-mades
longing
heart aches
heartbreaks
love, that i couldn't imagine a future with
love, that would **** me to not have a future with

we were timeless
built to last lifetimes

i am glad
it didn't work
out with your
past lover so
you could be
forever mine

He's a guy
who looks good

even if he's
not wearing

aesthetic clothes,

he's a guy who
can make you smile

even if he's
not telling

funny jokes,

and he's a guy who
can steal your heart

even if he's
not making

you his world,

if tulips can
represent a man

it would be him,

'cause he doesn't
need to bloom

to impress everyone,

by the way,
he's my man.