CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
I thought it was gone, they had taken my kidney, I thought it was out
     CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
"It has made its way to your liver, we've also found some cancerous cells in your brain, I'm sorry", as if a doctor's sympathy makes any difference
     CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
There is no real treatment, only drugs that might slow down the growth, "it worked in 28% of patients", it hurts to see my family's pain, 28%
     CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
I am not in the 28%, they've stopped treatment. The pain is overwhelming
     CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
Soon, soon it will be over, soon the pain will end, soon i will be free     CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
Hurts my loved ones more than me. I sleep away most of what I have left
     CANCER
                         Cancer
                                          cancer
And then, it was over.
And then, I was free.

love is a cancer
love is a cancer because
even though you feel optimistic about your prognosis
even though you still have delusions about your (im)mortality
cancer is cancer
and with cancer, there is only one way this can end

love is a cancer
because you hear the stories
you see the victims
but you always roll your eyes and say
"that'll never be me"
but it will be you
love is a cancer
and i am the patient

love is a cancer
and i met you in a support group
we commiserated over our shared illness
then overcame it together
hand in hand, we thought we were safe
but love is a cancer
and you will never be safe

love is a cancer
and cancer is cruel
as you regained your strength, i lost mine
your love is a tumor
at first it was so small
i didn't notice a difference
but with each new time you let me down
that tumor inside me grew and grew
until one day it overtook me
there was nothing we could do

love is a cancer
like all illnesses
you think it can be treated
i sat through long hours of radiation
i sat soggy from the chemo
my lips, chapped and faded
longed for your sweet kiss
even thought i felt it once-
but alas, your touch was only a dream
a side effect from my killing savior
love is a cancer
and my love, my darling-
it has metastasized

love is a cancer
and i was the patient
in just five months, i have grown
jealous, rail-thin, and prone to paranoia
a shell of who i am
who i used to be
now i am stuck here, useless and helpless
i lack the weakness to hand over my life
i lack the strength to say goodbye
five months ago, i was optimistic
since of course i am invincible
but i am not invincible
because cancer is cancer
and with cancer, there is only one way this will end