lost count on
how many times i have wished for
"a little less pain "
in this life

A Hard Knock alum, not permitted to blossom
No one ever there who'd care to clarify "how come?"
Deep down, in the depths of my heart shaped chasm,
I know what's about to come in is the inevitable outcome
That I forgot to remember I was still and forever running from
Or,
More likely
Subconsciously, finally and fully drained, exhausted and done
This was not that much fun

©2024

HOW DOES THAT RUSH FEEL ?
THAT FIRST TOUCH RUSH
THAT FIRST KISS RUSH
THAT GLANCE RUSH

while we continued to suffer
we still loved each other

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

at least , at last love me
even though its not the consuming love
i just wanna experience the warmth of it ...

my tears will confess  you
my smiles will confess  you
my thoughts will confess  you
each and every particle of my existence will confess
"THE STORY OF YOU"

I scoff in embarrassment
At myself
And shrug a cold shoulder
As emotions threaten to boil over
Jealous of a fictional character
When one hears from the other
That they'll be friends forever
Forever
Has never
Been a player
In my endeavor

©2024