Never in my life
Have a set of hazel
brown irises brought
me to my knees
faster than hers can

I'm starting a journey.

My feet are already bloodied,
and my muscles are strained to
near complete disrepair;

But this is my self-discovery.

You have to let me
find and become myself.

Buzzy and disoriented

Surreal and intangible

Semi-lucid stumbling

A nervous tick to

A gory mess


Dizzying with elapsing

time and continued

bleeding. Blurring the

thick lines of reality

Into oblivion

Every wall is
simply seething with
uncomfortable tension
and bubbling anger

I've become almost
painfully aware that
something around me
just isn't right

Even the metronome-
constant ticking of
the antique clock
cannot settle me

Only in my state

Of punch-drunk

In love and

My buzzy body high

Can make me feel as if

I radiate poetry

He lustily wraps his
Unforgiving tendrils
'Round my willing mind
Here he comes again,
His tongue silver, cunning

He is my vice
He seduces my urges,
And encourages me,
To indulge in his
Hazy poison

Why are you being like this?
I can't explain to her
How he steadies
My freight train heart
And my fragile mind

His bite is all too
Familiar and comforting
Reminding me of
Bittersweet times,
Dwelling on the bitter

But something in me still
Just doesn't want to let him go
My little silver tongued- menace
I just can't stop
Letting his ghost

Gradually and damagingly,
Into my weakened lungs.

When you look at me,
Your brown eyes
somber and empty,
It makes me wonder
if it's my doing

When you shake in the
midnights and new dawns,
I can only hope
that I'm not the one
undoing what you're holding dear

I want to help you, beautiful,
with every piece of me.
Until then I'll shush you in slumber
and love you unconditionally
in your waking moments and long days