I am not the only one
Who when my back is turned,
Envisions monsters
With daggers in their hands
And a pool of blood on the floor
I am not the only one
Who sits in constant fear
That my name is being
Hacked up and spat
out of people's s mouths
I am not the only one
Who is a million pound barbell ****** upon my neighbors shoulders
Breaking them down
Day by day.
I am not the only one
I am not the only one
I am not the only one.

I am dying
To feel you crawl
Deep inside my veins
To pull them taunt
And play me a sweet melody
To smash my bones into powder
And place it under my nose
Inhale the mistakes and misgivings
I've brought upon myself
You,
Being the most important to me
The one that pulls me down
When I get too high
The one that keeps me manic
When I am too sane
The one that sleeps
With a gun
Against my tongue
To keep my words inside

I wish to
Float
Into your bloodstream
For a bit
I'm wondering
If I'll Flow along with it

Yet Your reassurance couldn't bring me breath in sleep
Quivering lungs could respond to your electric touch
And adore it.
Though the weight of the world,
Your head on my chest
Heard my heart pour out more poetry
Than eager fingers could achieve.
You felt the spoken beat of my heart,
Which sprouted wrinkles
Onto your majestic face

It’s crazy,
Even after all these years I still burn for u.
You left me with scars,
from 3rd degree burns
all over my body.
Not burns by fire,
Burns from your tongue
slipping in and out
of someone else’s mouth.
But I do still burn for u
And I doubt that will ever change.

I had expected the stars to be close
Enough to touch
Hanging like stranded diamonds
Deep within the confines of
The rambling universe