Old ghosts come haunting me
On sleepless nights

Warm fingerprints
On frosty windows of
The freezing room I keep
Our stories hidden in

Cold because
It's numb that way
Cold to keep those
Ghosts away

Cold because you
Were cold to me
You were a freezing winter
And I am a warm summer
And God knows
We couldn't create spring

Your hope is the thing I hold on to
When I have nothing else
When cherished ones I've clung to vanish
I run to you, Lord
Many say you are unreachable and distant
They say that you will not touch a mortal heart
But when I run to you in trouble screaming, "Sanctuary!"
I am ushered into your mighty love
I am yours
And in all my distress
You are there
Your voice is my safe place
I have no other security apart from you
Your embrace is my shield
You protect me from things that pass my understanding of pain
Your love is my authenticity
You are reality
And, dear Jesus, you are also the true fairy tale.
You are always constant
Reminding me that your Hope isn't just a feeling or a wish
It's a promise
A promise that was paid in blood and sacrifice
A promise that died and rose again
A promise that protects me
A promise that is my shelter
Oh Lord, you are My Promise.

The rain lashed out
The wind cried
And inside the church was I
I knew that the sky was mourning
That you are not alive

The songs we sang
The words spoken
The hugs, all passed in a blur
And I stood there remembering
Playing with you when I was a little girl

I glanced up at the stained glass window
When my head should've been bowed in prayer
And Jesus stood smiling in the light
Even though it was raining out there

I hugged your brother as I left
And there were words I could not speak
I think he knew that I wanted to tell him
That my brother's funeral was there, too.
I wanted to tell him
I knew
I know
that brothers shouldn't die
But I couldn't
choke the words
out.

And someday,
You'll find me running through the streets
With a bikini on
And a Rapunzel sticker on my cheek
The Hobbit in one hand
And a Bible in the other
My hair flying free and wild
And me feeling just like a child
Screaming that I am who I am
I can be everything
I love sparkles and happy things
But I can fight and be tough
I'm just a human being
I'm 10 pounds overweight
And I drink too much hot chocolate
But this is who I am.
I don't care anymore.
Here I am.

All I ever wanted was to hold your hand
And in that moment, everything in my world was perfect
But I didn't think of how it would feel
When you
let
go

Life is crashing down
Around me
And I'm learning that
These walls
That I've worked so hard
To sustain
Can't stay up forever
No matter how strong
I remain

The world outside
Pounds
And nothing is steady
Except the words of
Your promises
But you seem so far
And I strain to hear your voice
Sometimes I feel like it's lost
In the howling wind
Of this external winter that
I'm living in

Strong music lilts over foggy hills
A bird flies overhead, it's tune being shrill
And with these words my heart seems to fill;
"This is your home. Your ancient home."

A tall, mighty castle rises over the moors
And a strong ocean's waves on the rocks are torn
Somehow, I know here my heart was born;
"This is your home. Your ancient home."

Strong Celtic music floats over the trees
A dancing in my heart just wants to be free
I whisper as I look at the tossing seas;
"This is my home. My ancient home."