There are people
Who help us rise
Just because they
Love us

Boredom
Gives me anxiety

Distraction
Is my coping mechanism

Sometimes
the
things
that
we
are
sure
about
let
us
down

We think our kids will be better than us
They will have everything they need and even more
But that doesn’t make them great
Your child is not the one who is gonna realize your lost dream
He isn’t so special
He is just like you with the same thoughts and fears of your childhood and your teenage years

So I don’t think we are disappointing them
when we aren’t able to do what they think we are capable
Nonetheless I hope I could satisfy them
Make myself proud and make them proud
For they have given me the chance to grow mentally and spiritually
And I am forever grateful for that

You can be sad
But you can make yourself happy

This is the street of my school
Where my parents used to drop me off everyday
for fifteen years
This is where I've grown
where I made friends
where I learned how to write, how to read
This is where I've had dreams
of a better me, a better self
This small space was my whole world
All my childhood is shattered
All my memories are destroyed

How some people simplify stuff
how they say the right words
the words that fit perfectly
that describe the person in an exact way
I think that they don't know how much they are helping us
how little things lead to big progresses
how words are able to set your mind
how eveything feels right all of a sudden
how you manage your life
how you let people in
and how you let them go
how you feel now
and how you have felt before
How everything is slowing making sense

Pain is the only thing
That make us humans

Talking while someone listens
is called healing

We give people
the power to
hurt us

We give them the space
to judge us

If it takes time
It’s worth it

Do not speed your life
Do not skip moments

Leave
Whatever
Makes you feel down
Leave what makes you feel stuck
Unwanted
Unworthy
Leave what glues you to the ground
Leave the dreams you have created in your own mind
Leave it behind
Focus on yourself
Discover your soul
And let go of unnecessary relationships

Get away
from anything
That makes
you suffer

Everything matters
Even the little things

If only the confidence
That others give to us
Can rise from our deepest selves

In you arms
is where I wish
to belong right now

Does it happen to you?
When self doubt is all you can think about
When all the good things in your life are forgotten
And you’re only focusing on yourself

Stress
Makes me
Question
My self worth

On strange islands
In strange places
we start to learn about ourselves
when we separate ourselves from the ordinary
we tend to explore our deepest selves
in random, strange faces
we found the faces of the ones that we love and miss
In the snow
we found oursleves thinking about how we tend to change sometimes like seasons
In the clear sky and the clear night
we have this feeling that our minds are expanding
and that our body is not important
we are souls connected to stars
and we are bodies connected to dust
we forget how to close our eyes
and sometimes we forget how to feel
but we are always searching for ourselves
and thats the real purpose of life

You cannot hear your own thoughts
When you are surrounded by chaos

Open the dictionary and you’ll find its meaning
open your windows and remember sad things
and you’ll feel it
but do you know how we experience it?
We live with our emotions
every second of the day
Even if sometimes we suppress them
we make them disappear out of fear
of being judged as weak
Our society refuses our emotions
and want us to get rid of it
should we?
Should we erase what makes us human
what differentiate us from others
what gives life meaning
Should we listen to them
every time they ask us not to feel?

What I don’t talk about
Is that sometimes I feel like an outsider
Like I don’t matter
Like I can’t do it
That things are impossible to achieve
I feel weird talking with my french accent
I don’t fit in

I will not give up on my dream
No matter how many times I doubt yourself

Life is absurd
Full of injustice
Social problems
Is it okay if we feel
Disgusted
And shocked ?

Il y a des amours
qui sont inoubliables
Il y a des gens
qui ne nous ressemblent pas
Il y a des choses
qu'on ne pourra jamais expliquer
Il y a des films
plus vrais que nos vies
Il y a des soleils
plus froides que la neige
Il y a des places
plus sacrées que l'église
Il y a des sentiments
qui nous brûlent

We don’t need permission
To be ourselves

La pureté définitive
D’une jeunesse incompréhensible
La beauté des moments
Doux
La sécheresse des esprits
Est-cela la promesse des adultes?
Devenir esclave de nos travails
Abandonner notre esprit
Et se fixer sur notre corps
On nous a menti
C’est quoi cette vie pleine de problèmes
Pourquoi elle est si imprévisible?
Comment faut-il gérer notre vie?
Quelles sont les normes qu’on doit suivre?
Rien n’est sur
Tout est improbable
Illisible et incompréhensible
Puis-je revenir enfant ou c’est trop **** maintenant?

Just like that
You end up inhaling smoke
They fill your lungs with a
temporary happiness and a brief
moment of satisfaction
Yes, these people were cigarettes

Trust the process
Results take time
You can do this
Your exams will pass
Your mental health is more important
Rest
Take your time to achieve things
Have patience
You are enough

I like movies with no
specific story
where you get lost in its beauty
I like simple scripts
with impossible angles
I like secrets
and sweet encounters
I like pure sensations

How beautiful is it to visit
someone's dream place
How magical is it to smell
the same odors
How sacred is it to see
what was once lost and now found

We think too much of what we want to become
Instead of searching for what satisfies our soul

Come swim into my morning coffee
So I could taste you
I could smell you and my soul would awake from its sleep

Come sit in the pocket of my jeans
let me carry you around wherever I go

Come to me
I will hold you in my arms for hours
I will make you feel better

Come, read books with me
listen to my favourite songs

Come, take me to movie theatres
let us escape to an imaginary world

Come, hold my hand
give me strength when I need it the most

Come, look into my eyes
and just smile

Come, sit with me on the roof
Let me tell you all the things
that make me happy

Come, let's take silly pictures
and keep them safe in our memories

Come, we will visit museums together
and stare at random paintings

Come we'll go to toy stores
act like children
and remember ou sily childhood

Come we'll wear fancy clothes
and act like adults

Come without a warning
without a sign
Come to me
Come to my mind

Come whenever you want
Come now, come tomorrow
Come to my dreams
Come everyday
Come once in a week

Stop blaming
yourself for not living
Your life is fully
You should enjoy
your slow days
where nothing
happens
You should be
satisfied that you
are doing nothing

We can stop talking to someone
We care about
And keep a safe distance
To allow ourselves to feel
And have the chance
To think
And reflect

There’s a power to say no
Every time you tell someone
“You make me sad”
You are giving yourself
The chance to grow
And move away from
what destroys your soul

Everytime you said No
You meant :
Why now?
Why try?
Why don’t u wanna leave what happens in the past?
Why don’t you want to accept it?

We need
To sit down
In places
That make us feel alive
We need to listen to the wind
We need to turn everything off
And just exist
Be there in the moment
Enjoy the view
We cannot control the world
We can only control ourselves
And we should accept the bad days
The same way
We accept happy and inspiring days

but right you’re special
but not in positive way
in a negative one
you’re too pessimistic
you worry a lot and you make me sick sometimes
your purity is mixed with messed up thoughts
you know what you want
but you’re not willing to make  an effort to make it work
you love people
but you let them leave
you let them hate you
you hide stuff
you make things harder than they’re really are
you dont want to change
you know its not enough but you dont even fix it
you’re weird
you’re weak
i question myself everyday why i still care about you
but i never found the answer

let's go there where the road is hard
but you’re happy and that's enough
let's open up
let's be free
let us show our soul to the world
let's make things that eliminate  our tensions
let us write to express ourselves
let us run in the wild
let us contemplate nature
let us listen to the sound of the wind
let's go where nothing is usual
where everything is new
where we finally find ourselves
where we’re not shy
where we can say everything
and act as children
and talk like grownups
and think like our grandparents
let's talk about death , about life
about the conscience
about the human behaviour
about sexuality
about kids
about adults
let's sit on the floor
and read books
and listen to loud music
let's tell each other all our secrets
our childish fears
our simplest pleasures
about what makes us happy and sad
i want to take a walk around the world
to see the sun above me
and the sea behind me
let me stare at strange faces
and let me guess about what they’re thinking of
let me hide in a house in a forest
where no one knows me
and i don’t even know myself yet
let me take your hand
and we will face this together
nothing will stop us
and nothing will makes us sad
we have detached ourselves from worries and regrets
we have learned to be thankful
to always believe in a greater power
to know that our road is simple and complicated
to know that the truth is always hidden in the deepest seas
and that lies float at the bottom of the oceans
i want to listen to unknown songs
to read books that people never knew existed
to get to know someone who is talented but not famous
to visit houses
and see what they keep in their bedrooms
what is their vision of life
how they see themselves
i want memories that keep me alive
i want a world that understands
i want people to feel me
to know me
to get to know me
not because i’m special
but because simply i’m like the others

I will never be your morning coffee that you take everyday
I will never be the same ride that you take everyday to go to work
I will never be the same jacket that you wear when it’s finally autumn
I will never be the same cover that you have on you phone for years
I will never resemble your favourite quotes from a book
I will never be the same meal that you order everytime you go to Mcdonalds
I will never be the same shirt that you wear to watch concerts
I will never let you think that i know you better than you know yourself
I will never fully understand you
I will never say things that i don’t mean

On the contrary
I will tell you everything
But what if you hated someone that is too different from the others
What if you loved the same stuff that people do when they’re in love
What if we became an expectation
But that’s the thing you adored to act like the others
You never felt like you should think differently
and maybe now things are beginning to find their way
Maybe our road is meeting
But trust me there are things that we will always argue about
We don’t like the same things
and we don’t expect the same thing from life
I’m different I know I am

You cannot love someone else
Unless you start to love yourself

You will never be able to love someone
If you don’t love yourself

Do not ****
what you have
in your soul
so someone
else can be
happy

L'instabilité
Le manque de peur
Ces sentiments inexplicables
Tout ce qui est relié à l'incertitude
Savoir ce qu'on veut dans la vie
C'est ce qui a changé en moi
Ces derniers mois

If only our story ended there
If only we didn’t talk
If only distance wasn’t our main problem
If only what we had was real
If only you gave me more attention
If only we stayed friends
If only we didn’t tell our feelings
If only

Maybe we weren’t meant to meet
maybe we didn’t know how to love
maybe we were too shy
maybe all of this was just a fantasy

But its weird you know?
how we have the power to transform our lives in a second
how we stop thinking about someone that meant a lot to us before
how we stop caring about certain things
how we think differently from the others
how we act with our friends
how we eat when no one is watching
how we watch our favourites songs
how we listen to old songs
how we enjoy the stupidest things
how we live
how we fall
how we rise
how we love
how we cry
how we leave
how we return
how we look back
how we fast forward
and how we rerun

You always wanted to hear the truth
to speak it
You adored realities and you loved hearing stories of people healing after many sufferings
You want people to always be true to you
You have a fragile soul and a loving mind
You are too good to everyone
But why did always thought you’re not enough?
When every time you failed
Every time you fell, you stumbled to the ground
You rose up stronger
better
more at peace
more calm
You cleansed yourself
and I started to admire you
I fell in love with you all over again
I respected you
There were times when I loved you more than I loved myself
You never liked yourself
But all I ever wanted was to be more like you
But that could never happen
I will never live in a time of war
I will never know what fear looks like

You are the person that always supports me
that cares for me even when I’m being arrogant
You never make me feel useless

I have learnt everything from you
I have learnt that depression is not accepting your situation , your present
I have learnt that letting go of things ,of people is something good and beneficial
I have learnt that loving people is hard and takes a lot of  work
I have learnt not to listen to these negative voices inside my mind
I have learnt to pray every time I felt scared and in periods of self doubt
I have learnt to forgive the people that don’t bring peace to my mind
I have learnt that being an independent woman will always help me in my life

I have learnt all these great things from you
but still you convince me that you are not enough
How could you think you are unnecessary
When every time I needed you
you elevated me from all this madness
you gave me sacred lessons
you told me about your childhood struggles and your adult secrets

I love you more than I did you before
more than I loved you yesterday
But forgive me if I ever made you suffer
I am a difficult human being that is hard to handle
But I promise to be better
to love myself
and to accept love from people who don’t know how to express it

Ask yourself everyday : What are the things I can change so I can feel more grateful?

I need to use my mother tongue
Whenever I feel down
To express my feelings
To talk about what bothers me

What we keep inside will find a way out someday