I am torn between what to do
but i know that
I'm through with you
this Hate breeds within
It's hard to subdue
why can't you bleed
a different hue
your in my way
why won't you move?
I've grow so tired
and there is no excuse
I've gone away
before you withdrew
I left long ago
and I thought you knew...

I hate myself today
a little more than yesterday
there is nothing to debate
I just want to escape
happy is far away
gone with the parade
it just gets to hard to stay
I know this sounds cliche
my life in disarray
I can say I'm not Okay
the end is underway
just waiting to decay.....

I Must be disturbed
just to say I'm OK
so soiled and worn
it's still yesterday
fell through the cracks
the weathers the same
as I tour the horror
I burst into flames
haunting and chilling
hollow and shamed
to thrive in the dark
is to hard to explain
I won't tell you my secret
the rest is unnamed
to much to spill out
so hard to contain
this manic and rage
that is so hard to tame
to live with myself
with the hurt and the pain....

Hey, I'm over in the bushes. Hiding from ghost. When one runs by could ya throw a sheet over him for me???????

Sleep walking inside your own mind,
while running a little late?
But not running behind.
The minutes slither on by,
passing your cries.

You Scream!

It is getting more late
you remain to still cry
at such a fast gate
time passes you by

Thoughts become vacant
remain hollow inside,
incomplete and completely
out of you mind

You never mind What's
starting the cries
cause you can't decide
what to do with your life

tongue been erased and
all thoughts have been sold.
your cries are replaced,
the absence of nothing,
never gets old...............

Like a dark cloud that
chases you down
cloaked in darkness
without a sound
whispers from within
onset of hysteria begins
the mania won't stop
all is remaining to spin
spawn sick ideations
with outburst of rage
blissful excitement
of feeling deranged
this souls become useless
from the day it was born
I grasp at the nothing
my mind so warped and so worn...

When your left all alone
  feels like death is inside
  nowhere to turn
  no one to confide
  
  I bury myself
  deep in disguise
  shelter what's left
  then close my eyes
  
  With all I have left
  I begin to suppress
  I still wonder why
  that I live in distress...

When the sunshine gets lost,
and I'm all alone
Time is forever and still.
Remnants of the sane
remain discarded and gone.
It's cold here and souls divide,
only to remain vacant and up for sale...